This morning I had my pediatric gastroenterologist appointment, 8:45am. No school. :D
We got to the hospital and the parking was insane so my dad let me go in the main entrance and I found my way to the check in for my specific kind of appointment then my dad met up with me after finding a parking spot.
The appointment went well..a lot better than I expected. The best part was my dad said, "-and she has an eating disorder-" he smiled at me and congratulated me on getting this far out of it and working toward getting better and he said some other stuff. I could see admiration in his eyes and my heart just exploded with joy. Finally a doctor who doesn't look at me funny. Finally a doctor who said, "It's great you're doing this."
He said that he see's a lot of anorexic girls and sometimes boys come through there and they have real bad problems. Specifically he said, "A lot of them struggle greatly to get where you've come." It made me feel not so alone and really proud of the progress I've made.
He switched up my miralax dosage and gave me a pil for lactose intolerant people to help with bloating (even though I'm not lactose intolerant).
Then he sent me for random bloodwork and a xray of my lower abdomen. We got out around 11:30 I'd think. The bloodwork was a half hour wait oh my god so many people in that waiting room. Our number was 69 (hah) and when we got the number they were on 45.
Two nights ago I slept over B's with BY, R, and A. It was really fun. We got really high and talked and talked and chilled and watched a bit of a movie. Me and B found out a possible problem that could be causing problems with us and I vote yes. He came up with this and I don't know how but it's spot on.
I think of myself as semi-social and I don't know why. B used to call me social but he said that I'm not actually social talk-wise, I can just stand being in social areas. He can't. He's not social in any sense.
It bugs me because I sit there in social situations when someone walks up to me and starts a convo and B's next to me and it's awkward because I feel like I'm totally ignoring him or not including him and when I try to, he doesn't really say anything (which I knew would happen everytime). I was getting upset cause he was barely affectionate to me, but we realize now that was because he hates pda, he always has. It's just in the beggining of the relationship we always were alone. Now we're doing things out more and it's becoming a problem. I think this might solve something..hoping.
Anyway, I'm going to the movies with my mom later soonish. My mom's fiancee wants to take me and C out for dinner at a popular (expensive) chinese restaurant Wednesday cause C's birthday is Wednesday and my birthday was basically dicked over..
On the plus side- Leaves are on the ground. Orange and red. The trees are getting bare. The wind is getting a slight chill. It's Autumn. It's October. My favorite month of the year.
Fuck. Yes.
We got to the hospital and the parking was insane so my dad let me go in the main entrance and I found my way to the check in for my specific kind of appointment then my dad met up with me after finding a parking spot.
The appointment went well..a lot better than I expected. The best part was my dad said, "-and she has an eating disorder-" he smiled at me and congratulated me on getting this far out of it and working toward getting better and he said some other stuff. I could see admiration in his eyes and my heart just exploded with joy. Finally a doctor who doesn't look at me funny. Finally a doctor who said, "It's great you're doing this."
He said that he see's a lot of anorexic girls and sometimes boys come through there and they have real bad problems. Specifically he said, "A lot of them struggle greatly to get where you've come." It made me feel not so alone and really proud of the progress I've made.
He switched up my miralax dosage and gave me a pil for lactose intolerant people to help with bloating (even though I'm not lactose intolerant).
Then he sent me for random bloodwork and a xray of my lower abdomen. We got out around 11:30 I'd think. The bloodwork was a half hour wait oh my god so many people in that waiting room. Our number was 69 (hah) and when we got the number they were on 45.
Two nights ago I slept over B's with BY, R, and A. It was really fun. We got really high and talked and talked and chilled and watched a bit of a movie. Me and B found out a possible problem that could be causing problems with us and I vote yes. He came up with this and I don't know how but it's spot on.
I think of myself as semi-social and I don't know why. B used to call me social but he said that I'm not actually social talk-wise, I can just stand being in social areas. He can't. He's not social in any sense.
It bugs me because I sit there in social situations when someone walks up to me and starts a convo and B's next to me and it's awkward because I feel like I'm totally ignoring him or not including him and when I try to, he doesn't really say anything (which I knew would happen everytime). I was getting upset cause he was barely affectionate to me, but we realize now that was because he hates pda, he always has. It's just in the beggining of the relationship we always were alone. Now we're doing things out more and it's becoming a problem. I think this might solve something..hoping.
Anyway, I'm going to the movies with my mom later soonish. My mom's fiancee wants to take me and C out for dinner at a popular (expensive) chinese restaurant Wednesday cause C's birthday is Wednesday and my birthday was basically dicked over..
On the plus side- Leaves are on the ground. Orange and red. The trees are getting bare. The wind is getting a slight chill. It's Autumn. It's October. My favorite month of the year.
Fuck. Yes.
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