Distended Pain

This isn't right and I've known it for a long time.

My stomach is so distended and my skin feels tight. I'm eating and drinking correctly and yet somehow my bowels still despise me.

I am so incredibly fed up with this I want to sit and stand and be comfortable doing so. 

But no, my skin is always pulling, my tummy is always pooched out because I'm always full.

It's such a problem..

I don't remember if I mentioned but I went to the ER again for it, the pure pain. They said there's sensors in the colon that make your bowels squeeze and instead of that, mine are just stretching and everything is getting backed up. It could be caused by stress and I think that's it. The funny thing is though that the only thing I'm truly giving all my stress to, is my stomach. No matter how hard I try, I'm constantly reminded by not being able to wear shirts that fit correctly and having to wear baggier shirts or hoodies because 1) My stomach's too sensitive to have anything touch it. 2) I don't want people to see my stomach. 

Not to mention the pain and the tightness is always there and the stress of how it's pretty much hopeless that it will be fixed. Then the stress of eating correctly for hope of bowel movements. And the fear of eating. I'm actually afraid of eating because of the pain it will put on my stomach. For once it's not Ed making me afraid, it's real burning, tight pain.

Fuck.

I have a pediatric gastroantonologist appointment for the first. I can't even being to express how badly I want this to be fixed. Anything. Before I kill myself from the pain. Yes, it's honestly that bad.

Today me and my mom went to the mall and I got a purse. It was 50% off 56$ but at the register it came out  to 13$, don't you just love random unexpected deals? :D It's black leather long strap and a flip over top. It's really cute but it needs to be broken in. Then we passed a jewelry counter and I saw a ring that appealed to me and my mom bought it for me. 

Then we went out to eat and I got a salad and had some chicken quesdilla's..yum.. so..good. I haven't had them in forever.

Then we went to this frozen yogurt place and I treated myself to cappuccino flavor with strawberry flavor and toppings of banana, strawberry, kiwi, and yogurt chips (YUM!).  It was seriously so. delicious.

Then my dad picked me up and we went grocery shopping. 

I got my bloodwork back and it turns out I'm goon on everything but Vitamin D was extremely low. On the scale for it or whatever, it's 20-80, 20 being the lowest and mine is 23.

I got some supplements when we went to the store. Maybe that's why my gums receded so bad, lack of Vitamin D..I wonder if I'll notice a difference in anything after I take it for a while. Hm..

But I have to end it here it's 11:10 and I have to get up at 5 for school. 

Another week, here I come..

(Will have another blog soon about my current diet.)