I'm Back

Eh. Too long since I've written. I just find it pointless. By now there's too much to fill in on, so I'll just continue and fill in if I must.

My birthday was last Tuesday. September 11th. I'm now 17. I like that age. It's like a year above a child, a year younger than an adult. I feel more mature than other kids, and therefore- I feel more confident.

My birthday started shitty, probably because I was expecting it too. Plus I was really off Monday and my birthday. I put soap on my toothbrush Tuesday.. I was tired. And my mom texted me. So that basically fucked my day. First period, BH snuck in and wrote "Happy 17th Birthday Tiana! -Gingie [:" on the board. I call her Gingie cause she's a ginger, red hair and all that. She likes it so..yeah. xD That made my morning better. B was..off. He didn't feel good. His stomach, said he ate too much the night before. I totally understood.

His mom took me home like usual when he gets picked up by her. I choked on his birthday. I mixed it up with our anniversary. October 20th, and his birthday is the 19th. I honestly remember it every other day, but I had an extreme paranoia on my birthday and I was distracted when it was brought up so first thing I said was October 20th then I'm like FUCK. Shows how off I was.

Then after school, me and my dad had turtle cake (pure chocolate and all, no diet shit) it was..oh my god. But that one piece killed my stomach the next day. Basically diarrhea. Wonderful. 

After that B picked me up and gave me a small red back with a smiley face in a heart. Inside was a chinese coin on a thick black material chain. It hangs perfectly in between my collar bones (I'm one for short necklaces). The story behind it is when we went to NYC, in Chinatown I saw a necklace with a fake chinese coin and was debating on getting it but his mom said they have real ones. It was forgotten, then B thought of it last minute and it was the perfect gift. We went to the mall that's further away and he got me a hoodie and earrings. It ended being a great day, all because of B.

I went to NYC again two Saturdays ago- September 8th. I went to Chinatown, got 3 bracelets and a necklace. Me and my dad got some bubbly tea in slushie form and oh. my. god. SO good. 

Then we went to Ground Zero. We went through a lot of walking and freaking metal detectors and x-ray bag searches. It was intense. Then we walked to the fenced in area and the air was thick with pure and total peace. The only way it can be described. Serene. Like being in a dream, but moreso. I was in pure amazement.

Then we went to Times Square. First McDonald's where we had a snack. I had a vitacake, pear, apple, (I brought with me) and coffee. Then Sephora where I spent an hour. Toys R Us, they had a bracelet you can make your name and my dad got me one because I spent "all my money" in Sephora. And a panda necklace.

Then we sat on Times Square while it drizzled. I got fruit from walgreens and was having that and coffee. The atmosphere of Times Square is so beautiful. I was sitting there and I felt like I was the only one there, even though I was surrounded by hundreds of people. I love it.

We caught an earlier busride home- about 8:45 I believe. I was texting BH the whole time and B some of the time, and listening to music.

I went to the ER last Wednesday. My stomach. So constipated I can't even begin to describe the pain. The doctor told me there's sensors in your intestines that can be affected by stress and I'm like fuck I'm screwed forever. But it's the first time I ever heard of that. My dad's scheduling an appointment with a pediatric gastroenterologist..I'm more than likely going to have a colonoscopy..  hah kill me, fasting for 30 hours. I get shaky, moody, and weak after 4 anymore. I'll never know how I went two weeks with an apple a day and a month with one plate same time everyday of veggies and shrimp..

BY's party was Saturday, he turned 18. It was awesome. First we went to his house where a band of a few kids I know played and they were wayyy better than I thought they'd be. Then we all chilled outside and they got pizza that was apparently the best ever and it proved right cause everyone had 5-20 pieces. There were like 15 boxes. I didn't have any. Then we all went to B's and chilled and through the night there was a lot of weed and alcohol. I hate beer so I wasn't partaking in the alcohol part. But it was hilarious and fucking fun. I just wish I could remember it more.

I'm back in school now, we started August 30th. So far I enjoy it. My classes are decent and the teachers are decent. My math teacher made me understand Factoring which I took a month on last year with the best teacher ever and I still didn't pick it up. I guess it's the diet talking. Couldn't focus. Now, it's not such a struggle. And it's amazing.

More later or tomorrow. To update on my diet, I've added so much I can't even really remember. I'll try to give a summary at some point.

I hope people still actually read this because I intend to start writing again.