Last night out of no where, I got sick. Me and B were playing Call of Duty online and around 1am we stopped and I got up to go to the bathroom and I was just hit by it. My skin was purely pale. Everything was sensitive, if I touched my leg or brushed against a part of my body, I felt like I was going to puke. I was dizzy and so weak I couldn't pick anything up without dropping it. I had that sick feeling too..the disgusting off feeling. B suggested it could be my period but it just ended yesterday so I wasn't sure. I googled it though and it was a possibility. Like my body got rid of what it needed to cause the period, and my body was deprived of it so I just got sick. But for some reason now I think it's my anxiety. It's getting really bad. Like seriously bad. It's my teeth right now. Constantly on my mind and constantly horrified about it. (See previous blog) And I've been freaking out about it more and more and I don't know..it just seems like there's a possibility anxiety can make you literally ill. I layed in bed exhausted around 1:30am and couldn't fall asleep for a while. I hugged myself in the sheets and I was getting the chills. I felt horrible. I kept waking up thinking..I don't even wanna say it but it had to do with my teeth. I was actually waking myself up because my mind was in fear. It's in constant fear about this.
I woke up at 5 and layed in bed till 6 when I gave up. I was hungry and dizzy and I couldn't sleep cause my anxiety was chewing at me. So I ate my normal breakfast and before I ate, I took my allergy pill. Then after I ate, I took Dayquil and IB Profen. I sat down and searched Netflix for a movie and landed on an ABC Family one called My Fake Fiancee. It was actually pretty decent. It had Melissa Joan Hart and she played in Holiday in Handcuffs, which was shockingly alike to the one I just watched today. During the movie I started to feel a little better. Dayquil is a miracle. I was really glad cause I wanted to get a walk before the suns rays got too bad, and I know I'd be too dead tired to take one tonight. So I went on my walk and added an extra bit to it, then came home and lifted 10 times 2 reps. 30 situps. Then took a shower. After, my mom finally called me back with a very very nice guilt trip, then when I hung up on her she texted me and I texted her back and then she said I need to call her and she gives me advice then she goes right into another guilt trip.. Hung up on her again.
Then guess what? I made eggs whites and put them on a piece of whole wheat weight watchers bread, toasted. It was sooooooooooo good. Not a poppy flavor but it was delicious. I'm proud of myself because I just added two completely different things into my diet. BREAD. Eggs. Protein and carbs. I got olives yesterday because it's a type of essential fat or something that my body needs. I think I'll ease into them because for 4 small green olives- its 1.5 fucking grams of fat. That's more than a can of tuna! It freaks me out a bit but if it's what I need, then it's what I need.
My mom's cutting off my iPhone tomorrow. I'm gonna go switch back to my old phone tonight. I don't really care. She pisses me off. At least I still have my iPod 4G, same thing just no phone. I have to go to the at&t store and have them switch the sim cards cause the iPhones is smaller. Agh.
i think it's cool that yer thinkin in terms of what yer body needs to function properly. i've gotten into nutrition a lot lately--the whole eating-organic, lotsa fruits and veggies, no processed food-in-a-box/bag thing. i feel SO much better when i'm eating well. and re: fats, hell yeah some of them are good for you! coconut oil, for instance--it's a great fat to include in your diet! your BRAIN, for instance, is made up of mostly fat; it needs plenty of essential fatty acids to function properly. you follow? and oh yeah like i said, try eating something w/ iron in it if you feel drained or faint or weird around that special time. i've heard you get low on iron cuz of the blood loss. and if yer cravin milk or ice cream, you probly want some calcium!! if you don't wanna have the milk or ice cream, at least have some dark leafy greens like spinach or kale or broccoli. almonds have calcium, too. . . .
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DeleteI didn't know what's what the fats were needed for actually.
Thanks for all the advice and I'll definitely try some of that out.
cool again. :) and from what i understand, eating a bit of good fat like that every day actually encourages higher metabolism, cuz everything in the body's running smoother as a result. coconut oil's especially good, but extra-virgin olive oil's great, too. just make sure to go with the "extra-virgin," "organic" oils that are labeled "unrefined"/"unprocessed"/"cold-pressed." (the heat-processing that some companies use destroys the good stuff in the oils, so it's best to avoid those.)
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