So.. so tired. I got up around 10:40 today and layed in bed till 11:10 then got up ate had breakfast, went for my walk, and showered. Then I called C over and over..and over to make sure he was home. I wanted to run down and get my stuff because my mom went camping this weekend with her fiance. He didn't answer, so I played chance and me and my dad took a ride to the house. I expected mom to be there or J and no C. I thought something would turn out difficult. But we rounded the corner and I saw C's car there, and only C's car. Relief flooded through me. I tried the front door, locked. Then I did what I should have done the last time, but forgot because I was too consumed in anger- I opened the garage door and went through the door to the house. Walking in, C is about to go up the steps to answer the door. I figured he was sleeping when he wouldn't answer-and he was.
I went to my room and got garbage bags. All through my desk, everything on my desk, nightstand, closet, shelves. So much dust and sneezing because I'm allergic to dust. I got my speakers, posters and my lava lamp and I'm so happy I got my stuff! Like I can't even explain how happy I am. I felt like a small piece of me was missing. I need everything personalized otherwise I feel incomplete and irritable. My purse, my phone, notebooks, everything.
After we brought four garbage bags- two of which were filled with books (can't leave my prized possessions) and a heavy bag of makeup inside, me and my dad ate and went to Boscovs to continue to go look for a desk and dresser for my room because all I have is my double bed, a nightstand, and a small vanity that barely fits everything I have on it. We found a really cool black wooded desk with good amounts of storage space. It's assembly though and my dad won't do it tonight because he has to go on the road tomorrow so fuck..I'm impatient.
At least I got my stuff! Yeahyeahyeaheayhh!!!!!!!!sdfmmgfkr
Overly happy.
But now I'm so tired because I was shaking with anxiety packing everything and I was walking all over to find the desk then pick it up. I'm now sitting on my couch not even in my comfy clothes, still shorts and a tank. Breaking Bad is on, the one I recorded from last week. Me and B watched it when we got high on Tuesday I think it was. I didn't understand it cause I was too dazed.
I'm not paying attention now but whatever, I'll just read the wikipedia. New episodes on tonight. :D
I told my therapist on Thursday that I was gonna delete my facebook cause I'm fed up with the news feed being spammed with people liking pictures and people I don't even talk to. Out of 1,094 friends I didn't talk to ANY. And she was on me for a while about getting friendships started so she was kinda upset to hear that. So I decided to make another one and now it has only 60 friends and I'm talking to like 5 of them. I have plans for Thursday to go swimming at a friends I had gym with this year and used to hang with. I hope this works..even though I hate people.
I went to my room and got garbage bags. All through my desk, everything on my desk, nightstand, closet, shelves. So much dust and sneezing because I'm allergic to dust. I got my speakers, posters and my lava lamp and I'm so happy I got my stuff! Like I can't even explain how happy I am. I felt like a small piece of me was missing. I need everything personalized otherwise I feel incomplete and irritable. My purse, my phone, notebooks, everything.
After we brought four garbage bags- two of which were filled with books (can't leave my prized possessions) and a heavy bag of makeup inside, me and my dad ate and went to Boscovs to continue to go look for a desk and dresser for my room because all I have is my double bed, a nightstand, and a small vanity that barely fits everything I have on it. We found a really cool black wooded desk with good amounts of storage space. It's assembly though and my dad won't do it tonight because he has to go on the road tomorrow so fuck..I'm impatient.
At least I got my stuff! Yeahyeahyeaheayhh!!!!!!!!sdfmmgfkr
Overly happy.
But now I'm so tired because I was shaking with anxiety packing everything and I was walking all over to find the desk then pick it up. I'm now sitting on my couch not even in my comfy clothes, still shorts and a tank. Breaking Bad is on, the one I recorded from last week. Me and B watched it when we got high on Tuesday I think it was. I didn't understand it cause I was too dazed.
I'm not paying attention now but whatever, I'll just read the wikipedia. New episodes on tonight. :D
I told my therapist on Thursday that I was gonna delete my facebook cause I'm fed up with the news feed being spammed with people liking pictures and people I don't even talk to. Out of 1,094 friends I didn't talk to ANY. And she was on me for a while about getting friendships started so she was kinda upset to hear that. So I decided to make another one and now it has only 60 friends and I'm talking to like 5 of them. I have plans for Thursday to go swimming at a friends I had gym with this year and used to hang with. I hope this works..even though I hate people.
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