Lights

I was on my way home from ice skating. Taking the highway and it was dark outside. I know trucks usually have those lights lining parts of the load, but I saw a truck with the load lined more heavily. I had this moment and my face dropped as a memory flashed back. I was a child and we were on the highway. The trucks were all lit up and all I remember thinking is how cool it was they decorated their trucks up with Christmas lights. I was amazed and I know that because when I remembered it, a burst of fascination went through me. I haven't thought about that since I used to think it. I think I was maybe 5. I wonder why it just happened now. I've seen trucks in the dark lined with lights plenty of times over the years.

 I went to walmart after ice skating and since I'm almost out of my multivitamin, I went to get more. I was thinking in the car and an idea grew and grew on me. I switched my multivitamin a bit over a month ago. And now my hair is thinning. The two connected in my head. So when I went to pick up the bottle, I looked at the old One A Day Petite ones I used to take and compared it to Active Metabolism which is the more recent one I switched to. There were quite a few things that were lower levels. So I went to grab the old one I used to take, then I saw one called Teen Advantage One A Day, I compared that to the Petites, and it was actually better. So I went with that one.
Also, I got hotdogs I used to have. 1g of fat, 40 calories, 3 carbs. And they're like so delicious. Better than regular hotdogs. Beef Franks 97% fat free=YUM. After I grabbed them, I was walking to meet my dad at the cash register when I passed something that caught my eye. Weight Watchers chicken breast. 2g fat, 0 carbs, 140 calories, 31g of fucking protein? Fuck yeah. I got them too. The possibilities are just so exciting. A chicken sandwich? A hotdog on actual bread instead of cut up? Oh my gooooddd yes.
I ice skated hardcore tonight. It was great. The feeling of ice skating is indescribable. Literally. It's just effortless gliding and flying across smooth perfection. Works you hard too, I downed two bottles of water. Backwards skating only 4 times knocks you down.
Me and B talked..he's having some issues I totally understand. I'm just still confused about some other stuff. I still feel like he tried (still trying?) to drop me for his friends. I feel really left out anymore. I've been trying not to over think things all day and it worked but I still had this cloak of just.. misery from it. 
Last night I took melatonin instead of my prescribed pills which is Clonidine. It didn't work. I used to get 10mg and take 10 of them and even that wore off. That's why I had to go back to the doctor for something legit. I'm gonna take it after I post this and do my last rep of 30 situps and 2 reps of 10  lifts for the day. I got night sweats again. I've been getting them more and more lately but last night it was pretty bad. I woke up and I was drenched. I stood up and felt my bed and my pillow was wet and I went to flip it upside down and the other side was wet so I had to flip it around. My sheets were a little over damp so I tried to scoot the most I could away from it..Gross.
After my breakfast I sat down for a bit and went for a walk. The bottom of my one shape up fucking fell off. Not like the whole bottom but a part of it. It felt really weird finishing my round. Like the leg that had the missing part shoe was getting worked less.
Now I need new sneakers. And I'm not even sure if they still sell shape ups cause the whole lawsuit which is complete BULL if you ask me.
I actually got crash worthy tired. Time to do my situps and lifts, take my pill, and research more about vitamins.